[Ellie]

I always felt different when I cut because when I read other people's stories it seemed like they cut when they were angry, sad or numb or because something had triggered them and for me it wasn't always like that. I can't simply explain what it was like for me though because there were different times but there were times when I cut when I wasn't sad. I wouldn't say that I was happy because at the time I couldn't define times when I was happy but I was calm and focused. I think it's good that you're questioning why you cut when you're happy because sometimes questioning what leads you to self harm can help you to find ways of overcoming that urge; if that's what you want to do.