[bitesize]

I miss the old you, the pre-Ciarán you. Obviously I'm thrilled that you're happy, that goes without saying. But you've changed and you don't make as much time for me anymore. I never thought I'd drift apart from you. But it seems like we are. You got a new job two weeks ago...why didn't you tell me?? You never tell me anything any more. And it seems like evrything you talk about is Ciarán. I know that's natural and I know I'm obviously going to mention my boyfriend a lot as well. But sometimes I miss you. I miss feeling like I have to go on about my boyfriend and how great he is just to keep up with you.
And it's weird that you smoke weed so much now. Nothing against it...just because I don't get the chance to do it as much as I used to means I'm judging you for it. I just find it weird, especially when you made your disapproval of me for doing it clear to me for years.
You're not as good a listener as you used to be. My life is so much lonelier than it used to be; I've no one to tell things to anymore. The person I talk to most is Conor and while that's fine because I love him, I miss having friends I can share things with. I get the feeling when I talk now you're just waiting for your turn to speak, and you used to be the best listener out of all my friends.I miss the way you used to be. You're more pretentious now as well and you just don't seem to want to make the effort to hang out. And when you do I often end up feeling low.

I'm not saying I wish you would break up with him, God no. It's not him, I just feel that you've changed a lot in the months that you've been with him, and I miss the old you. Why can't you be pre-Ciarán Jessie as well as Ciarán's girlfriend??