[bitesize]

Urgh!! Why didn't you acknowledge my wall post?? This is an insanely silly thing to have wrecked my mood, but I've been feeling insanely irrational recently and it still has. Gurr!! I'm almost too embarrassed to write this, but it makes me feel pathetic and silly when you just ignore stuff like that. I mean surely it wouldn't take more then a minute to even press 'like'. I mean, are you embarrassed by me?? I know you're not. Am I one of those overaffectionate clingy let's-put-everything-on-facebook girlfriends?? I really don't think I am...I mean yes the occasional extra smiley or 'x' here and there, but ugh. Then I felt really pathetic deleting it, but I don't care. Wow, this is really such a tiny thing But seriously....hello...?? It just bothered me when I came on and you had been online, but there was my post just sitting there looking ignored, and therefore crap and clingy. Even though it really wasn't. It was only 6 charcters for God's sake. I really don't know why I'm getting upset over this...especially after the fabby mood I was in after last night and today, but it just really bothered me that you didn't do anything about it, and now I'm pissed off at you, which is annoying cos I have to see you later. And you obviously have no idea that that would do anything to upset me, otherwise you would have done something about it. I think it's because I don't know how you reacted...did you see it and smile, or did you see it and think 'ugh...go away'..?? The lack of response just makes me feel stupid and pathetic and I'm embarrassed because everyone on facebook will think that I'm clingy. Even though they actually won't and I'm seriously overthinking this. I think partly it's because he never used to ever ever use facebook at all and all our posts were just from me to him and he was a really shit boyfriend and whenever you do anything that reminds me of how he used to behave it really upsets me, partly because I don't want you to be like him, partly because he was such a worthless piece of shit, partly because I'm so ashamed at putting up with the way he treated me for so lnog and I never want to ever ever get into a relationship like that again and I'm scared that you're gonna be all like that and partly because I'm worried that I'm embarrassing you and partly because it reminds me of someone else I used to be seeing who was cheating on me and didn't reply to messages because of what the other girls he was seeing would think.

I don't want to embarrass you and I don't want to be made feel pathetic by you.

So the fact that I left a little smiley message on your wall about our six month anniversary and you went online and didn't reply or acknowledge it in any way is bothering me a lot, a LOT more than it should. As is very obvious from the amount of bullshit above. I need to stop feeling so stupid but this is seriously annoying me and has tainted my happy mood.