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Re: Slipping back into anorexia.. - October 24th 2010, 08:06 AM
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Originally Posted by Lost_Confused View Post
The thing is.. i LOVE being underweight. I know it's unhealthy, but I feel actually pretty for once. Sad, i know, but i just have this thing about being over a certain weight, and i don't know how to get past it.
I totally agree...I love being underweight too...the thing is, I haven't liked myself for soo many years, now I am genuinely happy, I don't tend to worry about my weight, what I eat, calories or anything else...but I do love the fact that I am actually underweight. I like my kid sized body...my lack of "female parts" actually makes me feel young again. So my thoughts around food and that are perfectly fine, i eat whatever whenever (obviously in healthy moderation - like I will eat lots of fruit one day if I have already had lots of junk) but I haven't gained any weight since I started eating again and I like that. The fact I can fill myself up but not gain weight is a really nice thought But I have all my energy and sense of humour back and I love it