[delilah]

okay. i understand that you think i need to become more direct. but what is so hard about undersanding i just need you to show me how much you love me without me telling you to. i know you do, but i've felt so alone, i feel so sad, so worthless. and i know i shouldn't put all my self worth into you, but i do. there i've said it. i do.

when mitch was there hugging me last night it felt so nice, it felt real and it felt like he really cared.

im going to tell you tonight and i need it to feel like that. i dont want sympathy, i dont want suggestions, i just need you to hold me and make me sure that you care.

i just need to be held. and im sorry that respoibility seems to always falll on you.
on second thoughts, if i get upset enough ill probabaly say all this to you.

but im so worried you will dump me for a forth time, im not sure there is much i will be allowed to say to you without getting dumped! so maybe ill just keep it in. maybe your pushing me away from you. hope your happy now!