[emoticon]

do you remember all the little things? i kinda do. and then i feel like rushing back to you. but then i remember all the shit you threw at me. i'm remember how i tried my hardest to forgive and move on. but i realized that i couldnt. i remember how much i loved you and how much i tried to make it work. but now i realized i forced it to make it work. everything about you and what i'm against. everything you do. i dont understand and am against. i dont miss you. i miss what it was. the friendship the having someone right there that you can trust. or thats what i thought until i realized just how much you were taking advantage of me. you treated her like she was indisapoable. and me? i was there for so many years though so much shit. and i got treated like shit. you can tell me and show me over and over again how much i " mean" to you. but i wont believe you. my mind tells me not to and i'm finally gonna start listening to it. everyday i pray that we forget eachother. and everyday it gets easier and soon i'll start this job and go to school. and idk what will become of you in my memories. i think u might just disappear.