I've never had a guy really love me and it's really depressing, considering the fact I'm almost 19. Guys in my past have done nothing but hurt me. I want to have a boyfriend really badly but I've learned that girls like me are not meant to be loved. I'm not pretty and I consider myself to be fat, two things that are immediate turnoffs to men. I am even considering getting a nose job to make myself prettier, because my nose is HUGE. I really want to have someone special in my life, but I doubt it'll ever happen.
