[HopelessVictim]

I'm afraid because things are finally starting to look up...why am I afraid of that, you ask? Because ever since I can remember, every time I become happy after a long period of depression, someone decides to knock me back down. And eveytime I'm knocked down, I spiral deeper down into hopelessness than I was before. And if that happens this time, I know for a fact that I will go through with me plans, finish my suicide letter, and make it happen.