I'm sorry this has happened to you. With
th e matter of your father, I understand that you want to see him, its only natural, but you should probably think of what is best for you and your daughters. Its probably not best if they are around a Man like him, you should not be either. Its is for your safety and theirs.
Also, you need some people you can really rely on, to help you through. To be blunt you can't do this alone. Do you have a friend of family member that can help you. It would be best for you all. You need somewhere you can stay for a long time, people to rely until your girls are older. If possible surround yourself with as many positive people as possible. If you ever need anything feel free to
PM! :3