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Edit avatar · 08:26 AM

I knew you were interested in me. I wanted to gather the courage to talk more to you but boys scare me. I wish you hadn't gone and gotten a girlfriend because it really does make things harder. I would have loved to try and befriend you and if it had led to more I would have been happy and if not I really would have liked making a straight friend. Now that you have a girlfriend I can't even pretend to notice you because I don't want anyone to think that I am a SLUT who tries to take other girls guys. And, of course, you go out of your way to not acknowledge me.

I really did want to get to know you but I was scared. I wish you would have taken a leap and tried reaching out more. You seemed really nice and you seemed like someone I could easily get alone with.

Sorry to say I ruined it and so did you. I kind of wish things could have been different...I wish I could have been more confident and courageous...

I don't like you and I can't wait for my dad to realize how much you keep him down. You condone my dads co dependency and it does not good for him. You are allowing him to keep himself down. I know my dad could have such a full life but you prevent him from realizing that. I hate you for that.

I know that you want control too. I know that is why you make the little comments you make. I hope one day my dad will realize what he is doing.

Lastly, you scare the shit out of me. I worry that my dad is never going to pull away from you and completely and totally ruin his life. He already gave so much of his life up because of fear and his need for codependency. I don't want him to do it again. He was figuring things out(although he is a SLOW learner) until you came alone. WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO AWAY? You say you care about my dad but why don't you see how bad you are for him right now?

Dad, I hope you are happy. We don't have a relationship anymore. I know you don't see it and that hurts most. Once again I feel invisible and unimportant. You don't even call me that much any more. You don't ever make time for just me. Funny thing is it is starting not to bother me all that much because I AM GROWING and you are not. When I have grown completely and changed in all the ways I need to I will look back and see you floating along. You won't change and I will and I know that is why we have been distanced. I want to change, I am not afraid of change and growth but you are. So I guess this is good bye.