Did you get an appointment today?
It will be worth it to admit that you want some help. your mum obviously feels you need some and so seems to be doing her best to make things better - in the long run.
You can do this. i know the feeling - like you just don't think you could make yourself say the words.. but trust me, take a deep breath and tell the doctor about what you are going through.
planning what you want to say helps i think, just going in there on a blank can just leave u wondering what u could start with. Like i think i saw my doctor and just said something like "im here because i tried took too many tablets..." lol kind of a weird way to put it but its was as blunt as i could manage. and its better to come out with the basic problem.
I could be telling you all this in vain if you had your appointment today. if you did, how did it go?
PM me if you wanna talk.
Best wishes - Tracy x