[anony mouse.]

I understand what you mean about not being happy without a boyfriend or girlfriend. Sometimes I feel that way too--I can't imagine myself without my boyfriend. However, you should stop thinking about it. That sounds kinda harsh, but I only ever seem to find love when I'm not searching for it. It just happens. When you go out with the intention of finding a boyfriend, chances are it won't happen for you: simply because you tend to bypass the really great guys in favor of the ones you think you want. The best course of action, I think, is just to let things happen naturally.