[Union Of V]

No, a safety pin isn't going to cause a threat (I do voluntary work and we carry multi-blade penknives)

You couldn't do it because you didn't think you could do it, and now you can only do it if you really want to and believe you can do it. Many of us have been there before you and worked ourselves out of it because we believed in ourselves, and you have to do the same. You can only go so far as you want to, and now you have to really want to cure this to do it. You have a way out, now take it!