[hope begins]

Hey - it's okay, I understand when you're that low it can be impossible to believe things can change. I believe it though. I obviously can't know exactly what you're going through but I've had some pretty terrible times, it's not that long since I genuinely wanted to die and didn't see any way things could possible improve. But now I'm doing well, I feel like myself again for the first time in ages, and I'm just glad that I'm around to experience it.

Do you have any professional help? It's just, if things are that bad and have been for a while it would probably be a really good idea - if you haven't already, you could go to your doctor to try and get some help and support.

Please stay safe, you can get through this.