[thegreatgatsby18]

i did the same exact thing,
i was raped when i was 14 by my boyfriend at the time,
and he took my virginty,before he did that..
i wanted to wait until marriage or finding someone worth it you know,

but now at the age of 18/
ive slept with over ten men..
and thats just sleeping with, ive done other things with probably over 30
i just give myself to anyone who even looks in my direction.
becuase i dont think im worth more than my body,
and i dont think that anyone will even be intersted in me
if i dont give them what i tihnk they want.

being raped deffiently changed who i am forever i believe..
and its not fair, that he had to take that from me
and get this power to cahnge who i am fundementally for the rest of my life

ill never be that innocent little girl again, ever.
and that really hurts.

so i totally feel your pain.
and get what your saying,
your deffinetly not a lone in the matter.

its really hard for me atleast
to respect a body that noone else has respected or loved..
and so i don't.

being raped has cuased my life so much pain,
i developed an eating disorder,cutting,suicide,drinking,drugs,and hookups.

i would deffinetly say that peo0ple can heal from it,
and be healthy,but i dont think that ill ever be "normal."

i can't evne look in the mirror without seeing his hands all over me,
makes me sick.