[xxCookiiexMonsterxx]

When it all started it was a 'game' then it became 'love' before turning into 'power and greed' and 'what I deserved'
Despite every punch and hit, I cannot blame you, despite every touch, each time of sex, every time I've thrown up thinking about you, every nightmare, flashback, everytime I've bled, passed out, tried to kill myself.. Despite everything I CANT blame you, I cant see how it is your fault.. Maybe I just never told you 'No' enough, maybe it was normal.. I mean who's to say it wasnt.. && You know why I wont tell.. my sisters.. my sacrifice.. you can continue to destroy my life but I cant let you have theres.. I need to make sure they will be and stay okay.. Because of everything, I'm scared people wont believe me.. But I'm not lying. I truely didnt want you to touch me, but you did anyway.. Is it stupid to still love you though.