There is lots of information out there that tries to explain the 'clobber passages' as us religious queers call them, either against or not against homosexuality. To me, alot of the explanations that suggest they are not against homosexuality make more rational sense, but then, because I grew up in a anti-gay Christian background (father is a Baptist Minister), I always have this anxiety about that. The safest route always is the least risky, in this case, not having gay sexual relations. Because, well, even if it isnt a sin, its definately not a sin to not have sex in the first place But then you have this problem of never really being able to be with someone, and oh, its worse if you fall in love. And I assume that if you dont feel you can have gay sex, you would feel guilty even just stopping at kissing. If you look around, you can find information of both sides of the argument (also theres interesting stuff out there on the issue of fornication, which they'll never teach you in church ), but I'm not going to give that to you.

Instead, my best advice is prayer, turn to God for comfort, rest and assurance.

Ok,my life is full of sin right now, but thats not a product of my orientation, that's going astray at university, it happens when you are surrounded by atheists, its something I intend to change, but when I first struggled with this issue, I was 17, and a good Christian. It tore me apart, I cried all the time, I freaked out. I was in love with this girl, and I was scared I'll go to hell for it. After about six or so months of this, I got to a very low point. I had fallen apart. All I could do was just rely on God, nd I felt uplifted, and it helped me get back together inside myself. Ok, maybe I was just feeling things, but I feel that was God pointing out he still loved me. To this day, I don't know if its a sin or not, but I rest on the fact that God loves me, and I love God, so even if I've made a terrible mistake, I'm still his. But this is my experience, and of course, it almost certainly isnt enough for you. Hence me telling you to turn to God, and rest on him. Dont just dwell on what you've been told by the church, focus on God, and he should guide you to whatever he deems best for you. Its hard, and coming to a conclusion may take time, but you have time by the sounds of it.