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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
May 2nd 2010, 06:46 AM
I fucking hate you. You are so selfish and I am so tired of it. I have tried so hard to give you your space. I haven't asked very much of you in the past fucking year and now I need you and you won't be there? FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU SO MUCH! I HATE THE WAY YOU MAKE ME HATE MYSELF!!! I HATE THE WAY YOU MAKE ME QUESTION MY FUCKING FEELINGS!!!! You are the SELFISH, Disappointing one not me. Go the fuck away. This weekend you have proven what is more important, who is more important. And I am officially done! You are not worth my fucking time. I deserve so much better. FUCK YOU!!!!! Every night since Thursday I have gone to bed scared shitless. I have lain in bed thinking that someone was going to RAPE me because they knew you were gone. I am so fucking sorry that my PTSD ruins your life. I am sorry that it is inconvenient for you. I won't ask another fucking thing of you. With time my PTSD would have gotten better or I would have at least learned to deal with it in time. I hate you so much. You hurt me so much and then you act as if I am supposed to just 'get over it'.
You called today and asked 'are you still mad or whatever?' You don't fucking get it at all. I hate you so much. So fucking much and I wish it didn't hurt so much to have lost you. But I can't believe you are willing to fight for other people and other relationships but not mine. FUCK YOU I DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT HURTS SO MUCH!
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