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Re: Dirty Little Secrets. - April 14th 2010, 11:33 PM
I wish he knew what I'm really like... would be so keen to be with someone like me? Would he be afraid and run for the hills and think I'm a freak... I think yes.

I want to be honest with people. I've stopped taking my tablets and I feel so free. I just keep pretending to be keeping up with them. I don't feel ill, I feel fine... so why do I need to carry on taking them. I know he would screw if he knew I'd stopped taking them.

I really wished I did not have feelings for someone that I do... but I just do. He makes me happier than my boyfriend... but I also know it is merely a fantasy and it would never work. He's gorgeous, charming and such a gentleman. He knew I wanted to kiss him when he tried to kiss me and he knew I was resisting. I keep wanting to see more of him... and it scares me that I could do something to ruin what I have with my boyfriend.