[Fear]

#1: He did something you did. It happened fast and he got the thing you wanted. But, unlike the fact that you both did the same thing, it's so very different. You manipulated me, hurt me, talked me into things I didn't want to do. You're cold; A stone. He cares for me and he cared when he did what he did. He tries to help me, unlike you ever did. He hugs me and kisses me and touches me softly on the face, while all you ever did was try to take advantage of me. Same thing. Different feelings. I just wanted to say... you told me it'd always be the same. It wasn't. You're wrong.

#2: Today, I made a bad judgment. I talked to your boyfriend and he became my escape from the house tonight; offering to pick me up voluntarily. I left the house in the middle of the night while he 'was getting $5 from his friend'. We drove around and stopped on a random street. Saw a cop and ran behind a friend's house in the bushes -- waiting for him to leave. Ran back to the car, got followed through the park, and went back to your old apartment that you still have the keys to. There, in the furthest left corner, your boyfriend cheated on you. With me. Your sister. I'm a terrible person - I know. That was one of the worst things I could have ever done. But, I did it. And I have no regrets. He's my angel... I need him - and I hope you one day understand what happened.. how we were drawn together; Two pieces of a whole. I need him and he needs me. I'm so, so sorry. I wish it wasn't that way.