[escape_thereal_world]

I'm going to be your first love, and I'm going to hurt you... I'm ending my life, because you deserve better, and I don't want to live without you. I know you are strong enough to live without me though. As you said once, "I would probably just work and drink more." That's okay. You work more hours than you should now...so nothing will change, and you can drink more like you've been wanting to. You know the ferrets can go to mom, and you can keep Jack. All my stuff can be sold for more money. I want to be buried in my ring though...I hope that's okay. I don't know if I want you to move on or not...but I don't want you to always be sad or alone... I love you, and I know you love me. I just need to go