[Far From Perfect]

dating you scares me... its probably the scariest thing in my life. you've hurt me so many times. I feel like if i let myself be happy with you again you'll just leave me again... i know you dont love me anymore, but u care about me so much and your trying to get ur feelings up again. but i dont think their going to. u stopped loving me for a reason. im obviously not good enough for you to love or you never wouldve stopped. everytime ive thought we were doing good you randomly broke up with me... im so fucking scared. i thought dating you again would make me completely happy again, like i use to be the first time we dated. but i cry more now, i was getting better, now im getting worse. im so scared to loose you im not even happy. i cry every night, i feel like everything i do is wrong and one wrong move and you'll break up with me and never love me again. i dont understand why i love you so much and i dont get why im so fucking hurt or scared. or why i cant break up with you but i cant. u make my life so hard. im hurt with or without you. i dont know which is worse, not dating you and missing everything, or being with you but being afraid to loose it all again. its just hard for me to beleive anything you say about caring about me and how your going to stay with me for a long time after all the shit youve said to me and put me through. :/ i dont know what to do...