[a_girlsdreams]

DEAR YOU!
You are kidddddding me.
Really?
I listenred yo you all night.
And you couldnt even be there for me!?!
HE IS IN MY FUCKING CLSS!
I have dreams every night that he rapes me.
Beatys me.
KILLS ME.
And when I want to talk about something, you have to go.
COME ON.
PLEASE!
All night I was there for you.
LIKE I PROMISED.
Like I promised back over a ytear ago.
I HAVE NEVER EVER LEFT YOU, or stopped talking when YOU NEEDED IT.
The ONE time I need it.
WHERE ARE YOU!?
Cheers to you, and Im downing this drink.
I needed oyou tonight and Im pretty sure I made that clear.
No fuck this, I didnt NEED you.
I just wanted tou to actually be there!
I am so disssapointed.
So.. HURT!
Like you promised you would "Never" do to me.
I want to scream so bad right now.
AT you. And evrything you have done.
I sit here and listen to EVERYTHIGN you have to say.
And OH WAY, I ACTUALLY GIVE A FUCK!
The ONE, ONE fucking thing I HAVE to talk about with SOMEONE who actually knopws and understand..
UGH.
WHY!?
You couldnt just listen?!
Not even for a minute?
Fuck, for a second.
YOU COULDNT EVEN REPLY WITH AN "Im sorry."
What tthis kid did to me.
Not even physically anymore, MENTALLY!
I HAVE NIGHTMARES goddamnit.
I have terrors.
HE IS IN MY CLASS!
I emailed TWICE.
Come on. YOU DID NOTHING.
All now THREEE times Ive told you.
UGH.
This in and out of my life.
NO.
FUCK NO!!!!!!
Its not fair that YOU come and go when ever YOU want.
DO YOU ANSWER MY TEXTS OR EMAILS, NOOOOOO!
YOU DONT!
But when YOU need something, IM ALWAYS there.
You tell me yu want to be friends, HA.
THEN WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU FOR MONTHS?!
You had sooooo many chances.
You cant even be friends?
I dont get it, FRIENDS!
After about two years, thats it?!
Fucking why dont you get it!
This kid RUINED my life.
And you cant even say anything.
I dont know what to do.
I give up.
I give up.