[xxpaigiexx]

My personal reasons for starting to do drugs and drink were to blot out everything going on around me.
I realised self-harm was not having the desired effect anymore, so I moved onto other things... drugs and drink.
I was having problems at school, depression, grieving, I felt like everyone was against me and like no one understood me.
When I started with the drink and the drugs I would be a different person, I'd be more confident to my normal self. I felt more at ease.
I stopped with all the drugs but I still do have a big problem with alcohol, it's the only coping mechanism I use, rather than before having a few I now have one.
Drinking just takes the edge off everything and when I'm drunk I feel care free, when in reality all the problems are there in the morning along with a spliting headache.
I really should know better by now but it's a hard thing to stop.