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There is no excuse for what he did, your ex or your rapist. It's doesn't matter if you "insulted his manhood"; this is not about him. For your ex to make it about himself just shows what a selfish dick he was. It’s also not your issue why he treated you that badly; he is solely responsible for his own behavior, which is pretty damn awful. The assault was in no way your fault, and the way this boy acted is in no way your fault.

A lot of guys have horrible attitudes about rape, and unfortunately, it's usually because they think very little of womin. You do not deserve to be treated the way your ex or your rapist treated you. You are incredibly strong and amazing; if anyone tries to tell you otherwise, tell them to fuck off and that you're fabulous.

I wish you all the best. I hope you find someone to talk to who is understanding and caring; you can always come here. Mwah!