Hey there,
I hate to be blunt, but he does not deserve you if he treats you like that. Getting raped was not your fault, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You are not 'dumb' because it still bothers you, it's going to bother you, and it's not your fault. Some people are insensitive sometimes, try not to let him effect you, he's wrong.
If you need anything, don't hesitate to
pm me.