[Imaginary]

I've been having dreams about my father raping me. The fuckhead also have the gall to insult me while he was doing it, which is pretty much the only thing I care to really think about right now.

Anyway, my father had abused me on one other occation that I remember (he showed me porn, and then I don't remember much apart from a few minutes of it). I think he may have molested me, that useless prick. He actually thought that he had the right to touch ANYONE, let alone me. I oughta' kick his dick off. I think the following might be related to the abuse, but when I get stressed or upset, I forget things. I've been trying to improve my memory, so this is why the dreams might be showing up now.

Sorry if this is a little disjointed; I'm not feeling very good because of this cockface.

I've always ALWAYS had a fear of being raped, especially anally raped, and from a very young age I had quite a bit of knowledge about sex, even though I don't think I ever had "The Talk". In addition, whenever I think about sex, my mind imediately turns to men raping, even when I think about womin (I'm a lesbian I think).

Grr! This is so confusing. Do you think I was raped? My therapist thinks it's likely that I suffered some abuse, simply because of how I act, but does this sound like anyone else's experience? Don't mean to pry; I just really want to make sure that it's likely before I tell anyone face to face.

I'm not really thinking clearly. Sorry this is so messed up.