[TheNumber42]

I can't watch you destroy your life like this. I know you hate me, I know you'll probably leave me over this, but I will not go through life knowing I left you alone with this because it was the easier thing to do. I'm going to offer you support in every way I can, but you need to take it, I can't save you, I can only help you save yourself.

I'm so scared for you, this isn't what's good for you. We both know that's the truth, you can't keep denying it. Letting this disease control you will ruin your life. It's already ruining your academics, it's going to affect your job. You said yourself that it was telling you to break things off with me, how long before it wins that battle too? I don't want to lose you, but what am I supposed to do if you leave me? There's only so much I can cling if you let this thing make you hate me. I'm not going to let it be, and that threat is going to make it constantly try to push me away, self-preservation. Is it really worth giving up your life for? Is it really fucking worth it?

I'm just so scared. I don't want to lose you, I don't want to watch as you spiral out of control. I don't know what to do.

I love you