[xxpaigiexx]

After everything that's happened recently the least you could do is be supportive. I know you care but it's hard to ever know you actually do.
You've swanned off for the weekend and I really do hope you have a good time because you deserve to have fun and not to be cooped up indoors with me. I just thought seeing as I just got out of hospital yesterday maybe just for this weekend you would drop a few things to be with me and spend some time with me and just care for me.
Yeah sure I'm acting calm and cool about things on the surface but deep down I'm scared, anxious and enfuriated all at once and you not being here does not help. You saw me the other day and all that happy happy stuff was bullshit and if you really knew me you would see through it. I was so disappointed when you brought all those people. I know you're scared but think about how scared and afraid I was, it was happening to me and it still is. Just because I'm out of hospital does not mean I am still not in pain. I'm in pain every second and you're away having fun forgetting the fact you have a sick girlfriend. Yes it's not fun me being like this but you knew what you were letting yourself in for, I explained all of this. Infact I tried to be more than honest with you... but you didn't want to hear it.
If I can't speak to you who can I speak to. I know this is still early days but I thought when we went from the transition from seeing each other to being serious you would maybe grow up and be a little bit more serious about me and any future we have together.
You're a kid. All you're interested in is your friends and going out partying. You need to wake up and smell the coffee there are some more important things.
You make out like you're so busy, you're not you go to college... you're a student. You have more time to breathe than I do.
My weeks tire me and yet if one evening you want to come round and see me regardless of how hard it is to keep my eyes open I do because it's important for me to make time for you.
Even now I'm prepared to go to your house if it makes things easier.
Despite the fact I was in hospital for 4 days and I should be taking everything a lot slower than I plan to do.
Everyone else is concerned but you.
I'm sick of it, I'm sick of you.
I don't know how much longer I can do this for.