[Rosemma]

I sometimes think you really dont know me... but then you seem to be able to guess a lot about me.
The only thing you dont know or you cant seem to figure out is that I want more right now.
All them things we talk about and you say one day maybe you can try that, maybe we can do that... I want to start now. I need something because I dont have anything to look foward to.

Come on you know that, I dont do anything or go anywhere. So this would give me some kind of motivation (albeit to do some so called things I shouldnnt) but it would just be something interesting for me to do.
I havent done anything new for years and I need your help... Im really not this boring person you must think I am... Do I not hint that enough?

I was really messed up when you met me so you probably dont realise excitement and being the one to do things that others wont or havent done yet is what I want, I want experience and I want more experiences than anyone else. And in the last few years I have done nothing, I need to change I know and Im sorting my life out now.

And this is one thing I want back... just for a while. Before I grow up and do the responsible things, yeh I want them to but just not yet... I missed so many years of my life... teenage life... I just want to make up for it.
And I dont want to wait till next year or 6 months even, I mean now... while I can, while I have an excuse for being a little irresponsible...
You know what? Im 21 now... Im going to be 22, I want to do all this stuff before then... you know things will be different then.
You get me?