Thread: Dirty Little Secrets.
View Single Post
  (#109 (permalink)) Old
Potato Head Offline
Member
Welcome me, I'm new!
*
 
Potato Head's Avatar
 
Name: Non'ya
Age: 31
Gender: Female
Location: Earth.

Posts: 10
Points: 10,058, Level: 14
Points: 10,058, Level: 14 Points: 10,058, Level: 14 Points: 10,058, Level: 14
Blog Entries: 19
Join Date: January 6th 2009
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. - January 25th 2009, 12:38 AM
I feel like I'm reliving my childhood. And when I have my slight flashbacks soon afterward, I feel like a zombie with a rusty serrated blade twisting in my chest. Sometimes it feels like someone punctured on e of my lungs, and it's painful.

I'm afraid of letting everyone down.
And I can feel myself distancing from her, it always happens. She's really important to me, and I'm scared.
I overdose on anything I can get my hands on every day, just so I can survive. Which is ironic.
I cut everyday, just to ease the emotional pain. To bleed his dirt out of me.
I used to shower for hours, trying to get the dirt and grime off of my skin.

Most of all? I could change all of this. I just don't have the energy or motivation to.

"Before you echo Amen in your home or place of worship, think and remember.
A child is listening."
-Mary Griffith