[a_girlsdreams]

Dear me; the new me,

The way grandpa looked into my eyes and told me Im a different person from just a year ago made me realize...
I am.
Walking on the beach everyday; praying, singing, just thinking about this new found life has been unbelievable for the past two weeks.
I think I finally found myself.
I stopped cutting, and never felt better.
I stopped smoking for two weeks now.
Im not sick anymore, not coughing, not hurting.
Though I am back at day one today with no smoking, Im ready to last another two weeks. And this time, maybe three.
I want to quit this habit, and I will.
From the other day when I saw Him, I think I finally, finally feel that it is not all my fault.
Yes what he has done will always stay with me, but I think I can move on now.
When I saw Him, I felt closure.
I feel so proud of myself. This feeling is new to me. And it will stay with me.
The passed two weeks maybe the best of my life.
I am a different, stronger person now.
Thank God.