When i cut i hold the blade to my wrist and push down, then i chicken out... coward
I feel like im not attractive, i dont think im really ugly i think im just not good enough to be with anyone, not even just for my personality.
Although sometimes i want to kill myself i wont because im too considerate for other people and deep down somewhere in me i would regret trying.
I know most of my friends don't really like me, im about 99% sure they make fun of be worse behind my back then they do in reality