[Bibliophile]

Hey, hey, hey. It's all going to be okay. I'm not going to freak out. I'm still going to be alive this time next year. I'm not going to leave you. I'm not going to leave any of you, but I'm so scared that you're going to leave me. Promise me you'll try and stay clean, try to look after yourself? I can't do this without you. I refuse. I wish you would stop disappearing without telling me where you're going. I'm sorry. I'm trying not to be clingy but I'm terrified that you're going to leave me. You won't, will you? Please?
You deserve to know that I'm neither beautiful or a good person. I'm no angel and I've done things I feel you would leave me for. I know you all know it's almost a year and this is going to be difficult, I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I'm falling back into that daze I was in when the hospital discharged me.
Please? Don't leave me. Not now, not ever. I can't do this without you.