[LadyLeila]

I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I am just so unbelievably lonely. I have three wonderful best friends and some other good close friends. My issue is that i've never had a boyfriend. I am 16, I model, I'm a really nice person, I always try to find the best in everyone and I am generally very optimistic. I am also very picky. I want a guy that loves me for me, a real relationship, I have to find him attractive too hah.

My problem is that I have a really heavy past and family life. My sister tried to commit suicide in October, my grandpa and three othe family members died in the past two and a hlaf years. I was severely depressed, had no friends, was anorexic, and was sad every day. I have since been recovering but I need someone that can handle my past and help me when I hit sad/rough patches. I just don't know where to start. Any ideas on where I can find this mystery guy? I know a guy won't fix everyhing but it would help my self esteem a lot which is rather low at the moment... Anyway if you've read this far thank you and if you can give me any advice I would really appreciate it.