[Tegan]

I've never been triggered by seeing stuff, and I wasn't last night, but the first thing that went through my head was "fucking hell I want to hold you right now and kiss it better and try and get you to understand just how much you mean to me" but as usual I don't think she got just how important she is. I'd give her my life tomorrow if she asked for it. I wish she could see her beauty through my eyes.
I told her she'd never see mine. I wish that was possible. In a way I want her to see them... just to know her reaction? But at the same time I'm so scared she'll freak or leave me or I'll hurt her. I don't know. Maybe not seeing them is easier?
I really don't know
Someone with the answers please?