Hmm ...

well tuesday i was gonna end it and cut the 4 vains i can see on my wrist, but after i had cut 1 of em (smallest one to start with

), I told one my best friends, who texted my other best friends and they all came online to talk to me / help me / stop me from ...
So I been trying not to since tuesday so thats umm..
4 days now ?
(its hard but im trying my very very best)