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Having depression and grieving doesn't make you a bad person at all, if that is what you are thinking. Other than that, have you ever teased people, called them names, slap them, put people down, or any of the sort for no reason at all? I know I can only judge from your posts made online, but you don't strike me as a person who would willingly be mean or bad or bully someone for pleasure. Sure, you are clearly grieving for your loss and how life is not fair to you. Yes, you do feel terrible emotionally right now, but that's not to be confused for making you a terrible person.