[Lizzie]

It sounds like a lot of your beliefs coincide with Wicca. We believe in karma and reincarnation. So maybe that is something you should look into as well.
Ultimately, it is your choice. Read up on many different religions and eventually you will find one that is describing your beliefs. You shouldn’t have to bend your life to match the beliefs of your own faith. If you find that you are doing that, and doing so does not make you feel like a better person, then that isn’t for you. You will find your faith, just start looking. : )