[emerson]

I am so deeply jealous of the vast majority of people on this site. Your problems, while legitimate and, doubtless, painful, mean that you are living interesting lives. I can't read posts about girls dumping their boyfriends and crying or being dumped and crying or having relationships and feeling stressed out... without thinking, good, but i envy you. how damn lucky you are to be cared for, if only for a moment. Regardless of whether things are perfect- they're not SUPPOSED to be, that's not even the goal- you are loved. You know empirically that other human beings can, and do, take more than a passing interest in you. If you're upsetting someone, good. If someone is causing you pain, good. That is life. That is what we're here for, regardless of which deities you believe in or refute. If you're having trouble with your friends: good, you have friends.

Whatever I am doing now, this isn't life... it just a series of images and sounds and people who don't seem to know I'm here...
I have food and water and shelter and an education. I am lucky. But anyone who has things beyond that... love, friends, a lover or something comparable, pain, passion, a past, memories of any description, talent... rejoice.