[Commiseration]

1-I woke you up last night saying I was "sick" so you'd stay up with me. I've been having a major panic attack for the past 2 days and just didn't want to be alone.

2-That was quick...

3-I miss you incredibly... I know, you said in the beginning that you'd be busy and unavailable and it wasn't a good time to get to know you. I just sucks not seeing you for over 5 weeks. I respect that you need to focus on this though and I'm proud of you for trying so hard to make it through. Even though I won't admit it to myself and definitely not to you, I am in love with you. Madly in love with you... I'm terrified of admitting it because I'm afraid of losing you.. Anyways, I got in this knowing I'd have to do some waiting, and I will continue to do so. I don't care what else is out there, I'll wait for you. Like you said, penguins can do it, so can we right?

4-So... gonna get all awkward and ignore me now eh? You didn't have to tell me you "like" me. Knowing full well I don't feel the same, and the fact that I've got a boyfriend. And you know I'm straightforward about such things. If you don't like someone in that way, you don't like them. No fault of your own, it's just the facts. So I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, but I honestly suck as dealing with these social customs and don't know how to respond appropriately except with blunt honesty.. That's how my brain's wired. Stop being my friend if you have to, but I've done nothing wrong...

5-I haven't seen/talked to you in almost 3 years.... But yesterday was your birthday and I missed you. You're one of the best friends I've ever had in my life and influenced who I am so much. I hope you haven't forgotten about me. I love you, always and forever. Happy Birthday Cody.