[Stained Dreamer]

to josh: i really like you...and i don't know what you think of me, but i hope you think of me the same way because i've been thinking about you for so long and i wish we could get past an insecurities we may have, work through them together, and move on to have such a great relationship that God can't even imagine how awesome our love is. i want to love you with everything i have, and always be there for you when you need me, and for you to do the same for me. i want to be that girl that you can't get out of your head, just like you're the guy that i can't get out of my head.




to dad: freaking idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you've just messed up sooooooo much for me! i don't even know where to begin with you! you took me away from everything i love, everything i knew...i haven't loved you since i was 5 years old, and i don't know if i'll ever love you, no matter what you say or do. you've abused our family long enough. it doesn't matter that you've never hit any of us, you've hurt us down to our core, and this mental and emotional abuse can never be undone.