[Fear]

#1: I hate you. I really do. I hate you so much that all the love I had for you is gone. Although, I'm not sure that I'd be able to say that if I saw you.. but I don't plan on seeing you again and if I do, I plan on saying no while I still can - before you trick and deceive and make me love you once more. I'm done. No more abuse. You can't use me anymore. I'm over it.

#2: YOU AREN'T FUCKING COOL. Skipping from guy to guy and making them feel like shit and then leaving them. I'm so glad he picked me after you - you made him feel worthless and I'm glad he trusts me with what he has left, so I can fix it for him. And you talking behind everyone's back but not saying it to their faces is childish. GROW UP.

#3: By punching her, you did nothing. You think you're 'hardcore' and 'strong', but you're not. Giving in and getting angry and punching her did no good. You just gave her more to talk about and act 'cool' about. You're just as bad as her. Sorry.

#4: Oh god. I love you. I truly and truly do, even though I refuse to say it... it's too soon, I'm terrified still, but I'm trying. You need to understand that. It'll take work - lot's of it, but I want to work on it because I want you in my life forever. You make me feel secure and it seems like theirs a force field around me when I'm with you - protecting me. I only can hope that I make you feel even a fraction as safe as you make me feel, as surely that'd be more than enough for a lifetime. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.