[a_girlsdreams]

Forget it then.

I promised I was always here.
And if you dont care, whatever.

But to read youre trying not to cut.
Or that youre upset.
Sorry I care.
Really.
Im sorry I worry about you.
That I tried so hard for the last damn year to make all those terrible feelings go away.

Im sorry I miss my friend.
My ex friend.
Whatever you are to me.

Im sorry you think Im here for the wrong reasons.
Im sorry you STILL think Im that HORRIBLE person.

Well IM NOT.
Ive changed a hell of a lot in the past two months, the past weeks.
Im not here to hurt you.
I never was.
I never will be.

Im here everyday to make sure youre okay.
Just to see how youre day is going.
IM SORRY I CARE.
And Im sorry that you dont care.

I guess this is why we havent talked in weeks.
You still think Im out to hurt you.
That Im some kind of monster.
That Im still my old self.
WELL IM NOT.

I might as well just start to hate you like you asked.
Because obviously you just want that.

Im here for the right reasons.
Im here for me.
Im here for you.

But forget it.
Ill give up.
Ill hate you.