[a_girlsdreams]

You,

I was a sucker today.
I was a weak girl.
I went to you.
I missed you.
But today, nothing came back.
Laying in bed with you..
Yeah I wanted to be closer.
But I didnt get back the feelings I usually get.

I let you hit me today.
You had your hands on me.
You kicked me.
You punched me.
You hit me.
You hurt me.

I feel so weak.
I dont deserve this.
I dont deserve to feel like shit over you.
I dont deserve to be bruised from you.

I hate myself.
Thank you.


Dear you,

Three weeks today.
Seen you once.

Couldnt even get my words out that second.
My hands shook like never before.
I think to that second we were next to eachother and think what we could have done differently.
What we wanted to do differently..

One more time..
I still care.
One more time..
I still want to help.
One more time..
Im still here for you.
Im ready to be your friend.
To help you when you need it.
Im okay and Im here for you.

Please.
I hope you are okay.
I pray you arent going back.
Keep counting.
Im proud.

Ps, I promise.
Im always here.