Thanks for being my friend. I wish I'd been less of an idiot, and I wish I hadn't hurt you. I always felt safe with you there...I loved you with all my heart and soul, and then I snapped. I regressed, and I screwed everything up just when things were becoming so *perfect*. I know you'll live a happy life. I'm so incredibly happy that you're all okay, and that I didn't break you. I'm afraid, though, that I may have broken myself. I've given myself so many reasons to cry.
I don't want to hate anymore, and I don't want to be angry, or sad anymore. I just want to love freely, with all of me again. I'm sick of being afraid, and I won't be anymore. I will end up all alone if I show fear or weakness like that ever again. I'm not afraid, and I'm not weak. You know me, and you're frustrated because you know I'm better than what I appear to be. I must have made you angry. I won't apologize for that, though. I want to accept this gracefully, and even now, I'm moving on with my life.
You would be proud of me if you knew just how much I've accomplished since you last saw me. I know everyone's lost faith in me, but I haven't. And that's exactly the reason why I know I'll pull through okay. You may never see me, and you may never know, but that won't make my victory any less of a victory. Thank you for everything, but you have no hold on me anymore. Your happiness does not dictate mine. You told me, that I can't make everyone happy. I just did.
I'm my own person, now. You may not agree with my decisions, but that does not make them wrong. I'm not walking towards a dead-end. Think lowly of me and forget me, if you want. Think of that as your final statement on the matter. But that won't make me fall apart. I'm not in pieces. Your word is not law. Whatever future you saw for me is gone, now. Whatever future you see for me now, no matter how bad it is, can be changed--it always changes for the best, for me. True, I have lost the battle, but I have not lost the war. I'll find my own way, and I always will.
You don't own me.