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what can i do? need help -
October 14th 2009, 06:02 PM
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This is kinda hard to talk about it, i dunno why but well,
3 years ago my dad started to abuse me emotionally.
my mum knows it but she doesnt really do something against it.
last time it got so horrible. i was just talking to my boyfriend over the phone and my dad overreacted, he screamed at me, said horrible things to me and he nearly hit me. ( he did that sometimes ) well this whole thing was so terrible, i screamed and my boyfriend had to listen to it.
i was shocked and my whole body shaked for an hour. i was crying and i was so scared of him. (i dunno why but i dont remember all the facts. this is everything i remember.)
now, when i see him my heart starts to race and i get so scared. and i have those flashbacks all the time when i am alone or when i have nothing to do.
it's really bad. it broke me so much.
but what can i do against it?
i wont survive more years with him. what can i do ? 
thanks for reading x
And the worst part is
before it gets any better we're headed for a cliff.
And in the free fall
I will realise I'm better off
when I hit the bottom.
this is how we dance when they try to take us down.
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