[a_girlsdreams]

Dear you,

Deep breath.

Your letter made me cry.
It made me smile.
It made me hurt.
It made me proud.

Everything that I have done for you, I worked so hard.
I put all I had into you, into us.
I gave my heart, my everything.
As well as youve done too.
Know that I am proud of you.
I am so damn proud.
After a year, you better know all of your positives.
Im so happy for you.
That you believe them now.

I want to be your friend.
But can I?
Do you even want to?
After a year, a year, I dont see why not.

I am not happy.
You hurt me so bad.
Your 'confusion.'
Come on.
You did not have to do the things you did and are still doing.
We broke up together, you could have left it like that.
But my feelings came running back, and "so did yours."
I still think about the way you promised you would never lie.
And the way you did.
But after all our time together, I have moved on and forgotten about all the bad, or rough downs in our past.
Honestly, they dont matter because the ups we had were so important and special.
I am over what you did to me.
What youre doing.
What you meant and didnt mean.
I am OVER it.
Though not over the loss of my best friend.
Of the one person I trusted.

But time goes on I guess.
With or without you.

In the end, I guess I just wanted to tell you..
Im proud of you.
I really am.
Im sorry for the things I did.
And the things I didnt do.
I hope you put them all past you as well, just like I did.

I really hope one day, one day we can start over.
Fresh.
Rewrtite the old memories in a new book.
One day we can talk.
We can actually see eachother.
We can hug.
We can laugh and we can smile.
I hope one day we can be best friends again.

I am not happy this way.
Why does this feel like the end?