[Lil]

mom,dad:Ive made myself throw up many times before,ive been cutting myself,i feel like im depressed honestly.Im not really sure when i first felt this out of control.In fact i dont even now when i felt in control,My own thoughts scare me,every night i dream of how wonderful it would to never eat again,just waste away and way nothing,to feel so light and empty.I feel like i have a raging battle going on inside my head,One tells me never eat again,the other says live for the ones that love you,eat for then,this ones is slowing fading everyday,the scary voice in my head is slowing winning and taking control and it scares me,which is why im so afraid to tell you i dont want u to think im crazy,but i need help.