[emerson]

My wee secret: I actually have no idea what's going on. I'd say/think that I were regressing emotionally, socially, mentally, and intellectually except I haven't changed in years. So, not regression but stagnation. Which is at least as bad.
I feel like I'm less and less able to gather my mind together and function, but maybe that's because it's the same as ever and I'm becoming increasingly aware of how much more capable I ought to be. It feels like regression when really nothing has changed at all, because the expectation of improvement- of forward motion- is there but everything is standing still. Make sense?
Probably not.